Sleep Over?

[Lissachoa]

*somehow I could not help but remember the time when dad and aunt Jackie were swapping pain pills with eachother as I pic up the jar and swallow a couple of them before cloeing the lid and tossing it to the side on the bed*

[Murduck]

*plops myself back on the couch, and I shut my eyes, massaging my temples soothingly*

[Lissachoa]

*perking my head up a bit I look outside the window only to see Russel working on my jeeep, of course the natureal thought was wondering when it was gonna get done, theother question was wehre would I go afterwards? shakeing my head I lay back down as I try to catch my breath*

[Murduck]

~ Unable to sleep, he lifted himself off the couch, and made his way to the small cot, where Michelle laid, fast asleep. He leaned over, stroking her hair, and watching her as she sleeps peacefully. Pulling out the reverse cross necklace from his pocket, he gently laid it on her palm, as she grasped onto it tightly. ~

*Whispers to her quietly*

You know.. you look almost exactly like your mother..
*sighs heavily*
Christ. I missed you both so much..

[Lissachoa]

*hearing this nearly broke my heart, never knew he was still attatched to her even after all that has happened, it was frustrating, doubtful he would settel with a look alike anywas. rolling back to my side I muffels my coughs which still hurt my neck and chest. and he lectured me about my husband, bull shit.*

[Murduck]

~ Without a doubt, his heart was still broken. It would take a lot more than a few gentle kisses, and hugs to mend it. The time spent with his daughter only brought back painful memories. It was hard to return to his normal routine. It was hard to erase 7 years of his life, and pretending it never existed. We all know that it was impossible to do so. It was hard to let go. All of these thoughts only made him feel worse. Clearing his throat, and holding back that single irritating tear, he sighed heavily, and caressed his daughter's cheek, lovingly ~

*whispers to her*
You know what, even though I can't be there for you all the time.. I swear to God, I love you, and I'll try to be there whenever I have the chance. I love you both too much to leave you..
Your mother may have forgotten that, but I haven't.. I made a promise, and I'll stick to it.

*kisses her on the head* I love you.

[Lissachoa]

*grumbels*

for fuck sake, move on...

[Murduck]

*Not hearing what Choa said, I thought to myself quietly, before whispering again*

But............ daddy has met someone who ,perhaps, needs me more. Your mum was always better off without me.

I know they are looking after you well. *pulls the blanket over her shoulder*

I couldn't do the same, even if I tried. I still need to learn how to look after myself.
You're a special girl, and I just know, that you're going to do far better than what I've done. Perhaps, even become a doctor, huh? *strokes her hair*
I can only hope you never do the same mistakes I've done..

[Lissachoa]

*blinks*

.....what?

[Murduck]

*swallows hard*

I don't know when I'll be able to see you again..Sometimes, I wished you'd just hate me, for all the things I never did for you. I wish that I could just drive myself so far away, so that I'd never cross your mind.
*sighs, stroking her cheek*
Your dad's too weak to do that..

[Lissachoa]

*sits up*

that's not true...

[Murduck]

*picks my head up, looking at her from a distance*

You're awake..wait... you heard what I said.. *turns away, embarassed*

[Lissachoa]

I got good ears...not that I use them much...

*get's off the bed and walks over to him*

[Murduck]

*frowns a bit, still looking away*

Still. You shouldn't have eavesdropped like that..

[Lissachoa]

I didnt mean to do so, alright?

*all my words that I wanted to tell him suddenly escape me, leaving with nothing else to say at the moment*