Lissachoa
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Subject 222 .. HAIL ME
a walking paradox
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Post by Lissachoa on Sept 10, 2007 11:49:52 GMT -5
*frowns*
I remember...however it seemed that you have forgotten one time...
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Post by Murduck on Sept 10, 2007 11:51:24 GMT -5
No..it was just asleep in my memory..
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Lissachoa
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Subject 222 .. HAIL ME
a walking paradox
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Post by Lissachoa on Sept 10, 2007 11:54:57 GMT -5
well you should have waken up before you blew it...
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Post by Murduck on Sept 10, 2007 11:57:14 GMT -5
I'm trying to fix it. Please, if there's any favour I ask from you, it's this. Give me this one chance to make things right. We'll talk things over, get a cup of coffee, bum around a bit, I dunno.
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Lissachoa
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Subject 222 .. HAIL ME
a walking paradox
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Post by Lissachoa on Sept 10, 2007 12:05:38 GMT -5
*shakes my head*
I'm tired Murdoc, feelings only got me hurt in the end, I try so much to try and make things right, to fix what appears to be broken, always it goes ungreatful in the end...
*sighs*
the reason I took his word over yours was because the last time I didnt trust him, My own husbends head was blown off right infront of me, I.....I idnt want that to happen again.....
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Post by Murduck on Sept 10, 2007 12:11:22 GMT -5
I know, I know.. *Opens the car door, reaching down and holding her arms, making her face me*
I was wrong. You were right. I needed to get help. I was so caught up in my own world, I just didn't see it..I'm so sorry I walked out that door. I am.
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Lissachoa
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Subject 222 .. HAIL ME
a walking paradox
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Post by Lissachoa on Sept 10, 2007 12:19:29 GMT -5
*yanks my right arm away, winching a bit as I rub the stitches*
.....look how I ended up since you left, I'm a freaking smuggeler who gsve up BOTH of her own children, neither of them deserved to be held with a mother with blood stained hands and who has been broken time after time again...
*looks away from him*
it was always you who pushed me away like I was nothing, like I didnt understand, I really wanted to help you but you never trusted me...
*rubs my face*
but....I want to belive you, I really do, have everything be alright again...
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Post by Murduck on Sept 10, 2007 12:28:34 GMT -5
Look at me.. *Places my hand on her cheek, turning her face to look at me, lightly*
I'm so sorry..I did trust you, and I still do..I mean....how could I not? You were the few that I trusted so deeply, that I'd give everything up if you told me to... I got scared when you said I needed help, because..well..
I thought you were the one who would help me in the end.. And I still think that. I never wanted to believe anyone else would. I never will. The reason I never told you anything was because I was afraid to lose you.
Y'know..scare you off. Think I'm some complete nutjob or something. I didn't want to be a burden.
Just please..please give me another chance.
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Lissachoa
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Subject 222 .. HAIL ME
a walking paradox
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Post by Lissachoa on Sept 10, 2007 12:32:59 GMT -5
*stays quiet for a moment*
....do you need me?
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Post by Murduck on Sept 10, 2007 12:37:16 GMT -5
*Gets down on one knee, looking up at her*
Yes. I do.
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Lissachoa
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Subject 222 .. HAIL ME
a walking paradox
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Post by Lissachoa on Sept 10, 2007 12:40:24 GMT -5
Get up...
*pulls on his arm, lifting him up to his feet*
I'll help you...but I'm sure if I'm ever gonna feel the same way about you again, maybe in time...
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Post by Murduck on Sept 10, 2007 12:42:59 GMT -5
*Picks myself up*
Wait. You've done more than enough..let me help you as well..
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Lissachoa
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Subject 222 .. HAIL ME
a walking paradox
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Post by Lissachoa on Sept 10, 2007 12:44:07 GMT -5
*shrugs*
what is there to help? I think I'm perfectly fine right now...
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Post by Murduck on Sept 10, 2007 16:34:51 GMT -5
Fine isn't good enough.
It doesn't feel right. It doesn't feel right at all. What you said. " I'm perfectly fine" sounds like a complete lie. I owe it to you to make things better than just fine.
Ok. Ok. Maybe this might help a little. Do you want to know why I didn't see Joe in the hospital? Never mind, I'll answer it, any way.
Firstly. I'm completely blind in my left eye. You know, getting acid spat on an already damaged pupil. It could only get any more better. Secondly, my brain was fried from a massive electric shock I got, in a flaw-filled, miserable attempt at rescuing Marie from that stupid machine, Parasite. I couldn't think properly, my head was a massive throbbing paroxysm of pain, hell, I couldn't even see straight. Not only that, but there were so many doctors there. They all looked alike. I was too busy thinking of other things than whether Joseph happened to be in California at the same time I was. Things like " What did that machine want from her? Will it follow me here? What if it kills them? What is it trying to do? How do I stop it?". Then, there was also the fact that I was hallucinating again. I don't know why it happened, how it started, what triggered it, but after that, I could never shut my eyes and fall asleep again. So I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not seeing him. I should have killed him when I had the chance.
I honestly, am not telling you this because I'm trying to give you a peace of mind. It's the truth. The honest truth. And I'm sorry. I'm sorry that was how it turned out.
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Lissachoa
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Subject 222 .. HAIL ME
a walking paradox
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Post by Lissachoa on Sept 11, 2007 0:13:04 GMT -5
*stays quiet for a moment before looking up at him*
wish you could have told me all this earlyer...
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