Aftermath

[Lissachoa]

*already made my way out of the building, it was strangely a cloudless day as the sun decended into dusk, leaning my back against an ally way wall, not really paying much attention to the sun sets beauty even though I used to love it's red lighting so much as it laied warmly on my skin, but gave no better comfort.
the memories kept coming back, if Only I was to have killed the adults then this would be easy to over look, but seeing the childrens faces, pale, scared to death, most cried as they begged for their already dead parents to come and save them, others tried to sacrifice themselfs so that their younger sibling can make their escape...noly to have thoes ones die as well...dath in vain...I know too well how that feels, but teh dead can't feel a thing, lucky bastereds time and time again, hearing their voices and screams...how could a person as such desirve to live? even with such a sinful crime against the pure and innocent...lowering my head and tightly shutting my eyes I just letted the tears flow down*

I can't remember anything at all
I've been turning it all around
I'm sorry, oh so sorry
Is this what I have become?

Something's turning me upside down
You made me
And I love you
But I can't change the things I've done

Wish I may, wish I might
Be someone else tonight
Sometimes I wish I was never born at all...

*pulling out but a singel pocket knife from my back pocket I open the blade as the red sun shimmered against it's cold steal structure, eyeing it for a moment before ppulling out a pack of cigarettes, only one left, normaly holding onto these incase Murdoc was empty...but doubtful he'll need it now...slipping it between my lips I light it up with the fools gold lighter before tossing it aside*

well...I'll be seeing you soon...





*Red...it was reder then the sun light, cutted just right as I let the blade drop from my finger tips, taking a deep drag as I could feel the fluids just rush out of me*

[[ amateur - 1 3 1 4 ]]

(( T_T ))

~ Amateur stopped herself at her tracks, looking down at the narrow alley way, with a sharpened gaze. Her head was throbbing and her heartbeat raced. Would she do it? Is she really so foolish, and desperate enough? She called out her name. ~

Choa!

[Lissachoa]

*taking one last drag from the cancer stick before just letting it hang from my lips, I could hear her but didn't reply, simply feeling colder by the second as the sky started to turn dark*

[[ amateur - 1 3 1 4 ]]

(( Dx it's not a cancer stick! ~_~ ))

T_T Eh. And I thought I was deaf. *Storms up to her and snatches the ciggy stick*

You know, this is a pretty crappy way of handling a problem.

[Lissachoa]

(( it's a cute nick name Jake gave it ^_^ ))

*slurs a bit*

I'm not doing this to handel a problem you bitch, I'm doing this to see an old friend and get me out of everyones way.

*dazzes off a bit*

man, Gary is a great kisser...

[[ amateur - 1 3 1 4 ]]

(( =_= i should eat him. ))

Damn this split personality crap is getting old. EVERYONE HAS IT Dx.....mmm..cigarette.

Yea Gary is hot blablabla. Look evil split personality thing, what's your plan. And don't call me names, it hurts ;_;

[Lissachoa]

*shakes my head*

no, the split personal would have killed thoes kids in the play room...even Cain, I had to get out of there...this is all me.

[[ amateur - 1 3 1 4 ]]

Ok. Thanks for confirming.

I think there are better ways to eliminate an extra personality. -._-. Usually through therapy and medication.

[Lissachoa]

I'm sick of meds and the last therapist I had got killed....

*looks up at her*

...you seriously think this is me quiting?

[[ amateur - 1 3 1 4 ]]

Nope. Actually.. I don't know.
~._~. You have all these strange ideas and plans, that always backfire in the end. It's like your mind is always thinking of some way to avoid real life.

[Lissachoa]

that's the beauty of this...I told Cain I would come back someday...and I ment it...

*starts looking deathly pale*

but for now...I can't stay....

[[ amateur - 1 3 1 4 ]]

*Raises an eyebrow, peering down at her*

I really hope you know what you're doing.

*Leans against the wall, pulling out a mint and chewing on it*

If you're going to drop dead, as we speak, I'm going to stay by your side. Doubt it's right for anyone to die alone.

[Dark]

(( Im dark and sensitive with low self esteem. The way i dress makes everyday feel like halloween. Have have no real problems that i like to make belive , i stole my sisters mascara now im grounded for a week. Sulking and writning poetry are my hobbies, i cant get through a halton heights album without sobbing. I must be emo XD * runs away * ))

[Lissachoa]

*looks up at her*

this has nothing to do with you....

*reaches into my pocket with shakey blood soaked hands and tosses her a cell phone*

only one person knows the number to that phone, answer it when it rings...

*slouches a bit*

[[ amateur - 1 3 1 4 ]]

(( LET'S ALL BE EMO *dark clothes* T_T no one understands me but MCR and Simple Plan. I suffer like there's no tomorrow. ))

*Nods my head, taking the phone*

Alright. But I'm not leaving you.