~ How To Save A Life ~

[Lissachoa]

*weakly looks up at him*

dont...dont be such a little wuss Murdoc...be-besides, you got nothing to be sorry about, that thing came to life because I had no control of myself that night I brouht you back to my place...

[Murduck]

I couldn't care less how it came to be. The fact is, it's here, and there's no fucking way to rid of it.
I can't put both your lives at risk. *looks over at Michelle, still asleep*

[Lissachoa]

*winches in pain*

dude, I'm gonna risk my life over and over again just as I have before, what makes you think that you leaving will change that?

[Murduck]

*sighs, looking over at her*

That thing wants you, or Michelle.. or whoever else I actually give a rat's arse about to suffer to impact upon me. I don't want to put you both in that position, anymore. *shakes my head*

Choa, for once in my life, I didn't know what to do.. That..that thing had my kid strung up high above a carousel and there was nothing I could do to stop it. I just don't want that anymore. It's going to happen again, and it won't give in until it has broken me down, and sent me back to the pits of hell.

I don't want her to live the rest of her life in fear, and I don't want you to, either. Just..please, let me do this..

[Lissachoa]

....best if you let your daughter go as well if that's the case then...

[Murduck]

I know....*looks away, rubbing my neck*

[Lissachoa]

*bites my bottom lip*

I'll....I'll give Lissa and James a call, give them tickets to leave the state...




(( gotta go, you get some sleep as well ok? o_~ ))

[Murduck]

(( byes ))

*rubs my eyes looking away*

Yea..yea you do that..

[Lissachoa]

* looks back up to the ceiling and stays quiet for a moment*

.....wow.....looks like we lose those we hold dear anyways...dead or alive...

[Murduck]

I need to get some fresh air. *gets off from the bed and walks out of the room, not bothering to look back*

[Lissachoa]

Ironic huh?

no, this is painful, there has to be another way...

well think about it, it will just pick us of one by one.

[Murduck]

Damnation is but Eternal

~ It was a tragedy caught between the chaotic undertones set up by destiny itself. There was no form of evasion that could have overcome such an abrupt function of life. There was no ability to predict what will happen in the distant future; For now, there was nothing to do but to rid of your grief and carry on, as if nothing had ever happened. Only you, and you alone will sympathise with yourself. Only you will empathise.

Life is cruel and fueled on the misfortune of others. One might say that for someone to be happy, someone else has to be in grief.The act of losing or surrendering something as a penalty for a mistake or fault or failure to perform and endurance of loss is what he did. He made a sacrifice.

Leaning against the safety bars of the wheel chair ramp, lighting the cigarette in his mouth, his mind was clear. The last thing he wanted was to think. It would only make things harder than it already is ~


*shoves the lighter in my pocket, taking a long, hard drag from my cigarette, before puffing out a grey smoke from my mouth, sighing heavily*

[Lissachoa]

*looking over at Michelle who was still asleep I could not bare to imagin Murdoc going through the same paine of loseing his own child, it came to a point for me where I forgot my own daughters name, all I had left was a face, it hurt too much, there was somthing I had to do to ease the blow yet there was nothing...




I just...Ijust wanted to feel loved again...





*feeling a sudden sharp pain in my chest, I try to ignore it but it only grew as I felt my heart start to slow down*

[Murduck]

(( Drama overload *passes out* ))


~ The skies started to rumble and droplets of water fell from the darkened clouds hanging above the Earth. The air grew cold and crisp, and the wind blew through him. The sense of tragedy lingered in the air, and each second felt more heartbreaking than the last. Removing the cigarette from his mouth, he stared at it blankly. Not even his addictions will save him; It meant nothing. He flicked it aside, cowering back into the quiet hospital building, and wandered aimlessly around the corridors, trying to shake the feeling he had. ~

*Nurses and a doctor rush into Choa's room, as an alarm sounds from the inside, echoing through the corridor*

Hey!! *runs up to one of the nurses, about the enter the room* What's going on??

Nurse: Her heart rate is lowering--

Shit! *tries to rush into the room*

Nurse: *holds me back* Sir you'll need to stay outside, we'll handle this!!

*Michelle is carried out by another nurse and handed to me*

What the hell's going on?

[Lissachoa]

Docter Mark: *rushes past Murdoc as he grabs up one of the Nurses* We need some adrenilin in there and get a shock jumper, I'm not ready to lose her!

Nurse: y-yes docter! *runs off*